Pray.

I am reaching for the light and the darkness nears.
Whispers in my ears and poisonous sneers.
I'm falling so fast, my heart he jeers.
Help me now, I need you here.

Naked Honey Waffles Update

See that nice guy I met?

Let's just say... It didn't work out.

As they say,

"You've got to winch a few frogs 'til ye swatch a Prince!"

I'm sure that's what they say, yes.

Mx

Don't you love losing your username and password?

The last time I posted was before the beginning of this year I think.
I've been keeping a hand written journal which is lovely but I've been missing my blog!

I've had a brilliant year. There are so many gaps to fill but I might as well yap on about the here, now and future!
I'm living with Mother Dearest, brothers and Step-Fayther Jim at home in our wee hometown.
I am loving life just now and I'm pretty "sorted" from now until December...
At the moment I'm working in a petrol station 16 hours a week, organising gigs for kids through work at the High School and volunteering, helping to run a Youth Club on a Friday night. In between all the mayhem of regular life I'm singing most weekends - yay! Doing exactly all the great things I feel are right for me at the moment. I must admit that working in a petrol station is probably not where I expected to be at 20... When I was in School there was so much pressure to be an academic genius and fire right into University but the truth is "square pegs don't fit in round holes"... You can't be an artist and survive like they did in the 1970's either - those days are over but you can keep your day job and still follow your dreams!

I wondered what would happen after this December and I was talking to a friend the other day that said, "Sometimes you can have so many options and it's like sitting in a room full of doors just staring..."
I concluded it with, "Some doors only open when you give them a push."
I have a cousin in Australia that I've never met. Her name is Merryn and we've been speaking for the past year. I'm getting to meet her for the first time ever this Christmas as she's coming across the world for a visit and an adventure!


Note to self: The piggy bank is your friend.

Let the journey begin.

Mx

P.S A short trip to Poland 3 weeks today!

This has become an annual blog!

Well, life is still really good. Things have changed alot again...
I no longer live with Fayther. I guess it just wasn't home... the rascal waited 'til I moved out to get heated floors in the bathroom... I might have hung around a little bit longer in luxury. Kidding.
I love my dear Fayther but we're miles apart. I'm 19, creative and free as a bird and he's 47...? Set in his ways and without any other children! You can't blame the guy... to some extent!

I'm no longer at college, it was fun while it lasted. The gigs were great and the parties were awesome but outside of college I do more music and I'm progressing more than ever.
I recently got offered funding for my music equipment, it's been set up shiny and new in my living room since last week. I am loving it!
Got my first wee gig using it this weekend. Disaster for me though... I can't get a guitarist anywhere for Hogmany! I am going to be stuck using backings (unless my pal calls me back and helps me out - fingers crossed).
Ohwell, I still have my voice :D
Again, on the plus side of things... I'm doing 2 gigs - I'll be firing myself back and forward between the two but at the other one I have two guitarists who both sing also and it's such a buzz playing with them.
On the down side again, I'm just back from the docs... I have a nasty chest infection and I'm on 500mg amoxicillin 3 times a day. JOY! I love the side effects of antibiotics -.-

I'm very focused - believe it or not! I have good feelings about the future. I am already taking bookings for events next summer so that's positive. Need to get some stuff set up, word of mouth is wonderful but I need to take it further now.

Another Christmas over, madness!
This was the first Christmas we spent without my Gran Helen. We're a very connected and strong family which makes it hard although at the same time we all have the strength to hold eachother together. She passed away on the 19th of August, she'd been living with cancer for over 2 years, after the docs told her she'd have a year at most. I'm proud of her and she's proud of us all.

I've done alot of learning this year. I've met some "learning curves", new friends, relinked with old friends, been on plenty of mental adventures, done loads of singing, and it most definitely has been a year for family.

Let all the brightness continue as we move into 2012.

So much love,

Mx

Naked Honey Waffles.

Dear Blogger I guess :)

Been ages since I last wrote a blog. Sure, there were probably times I could have been writing but it just never popped into my mind.
I have been working loads this summer being my usual "bag girl" self. The travelling toothebrush extraordinaire. I haven't been home since the 6th of July or something like that. I was working at T in the Park which was great but so strenuous! I was shattered when I got back to Glasgow and then even more shattered travelling to another festival for work two days later.
I've been back for five days in Glasgow, staying with friends. I don't want to leave!
Although the friendships last no matter where I am - the sanity doesn't! Ha :)
Speaking of friends, I am staying with my pal L at the moment in a lovely two floor townhouse apartment. She's house sitting and I had it to myself all day. To be fair, I did sleep practically all the day but I did get a chance to sit myself naked in the kitchen at the window munching honey waffles.
True freedom if ever I embraced it perhaps?



I'll leave it at that ;)

What a looney.

I feel this has turned into a big book of self analysis...how very dangerous!
HA :)

Life has changed lots in the last little while. Studying music at college and totally loving it. Met such lovely people, had such crazy banter.
Living with Dear Fayther. It is a bit bizarre. A man who has lived on his own since 29 now at 45 has his 18 year old daughter living in the house permanently...

"Did you get hair dye on the towels?...Where are my nail scissors?...Who finished the fresh orange?...I'm not buying anymore battenburg, some wee mouse keeps eating it... I'm really glad you are here... You been drinking my beer?... You need to learn to walk to the train station... Who is this friend you are going out with now that I've never heard of?... I thought the house had been broken into again when I walked into your room... time for bed... I LOVE YOU."


Life is good. I still can't play the guitar. I still would feel like a beached whale in a bikini. Summer is gone and winter is creeping in. I love my Mum and I miss her, she misses me loads. Living with my Dad is bizarre. Doing what I want to do in life is making me so happy.


Mx

I am writing for the purpose of creating habit!

Well well... I have already written since the weekend but I did truly have a good weekend ;)
For a few days after I did feel like I had been dragged through a hedge backwards. Another joyous weekend gone and another lovely week already.
I'm leaving for Italy on Friday after I get a few shifts at work out the way! JOY!
Bought all my holiday clothing and done a fair bit of prancing around the house with it on.
Need to charge up my camera, remember to pack socks, plasters and sun cream! Really, I have so much more to remember but I am being a bit lazy about it at the moment.
My facebook addiction is still at large! I need to calm it down a bit before they create a 'dislike' button especially for me. Although, a lovely individual did say they thought my posts were "so honest it's fantastic" so I guess that is a plus point.
I can daily be quite enthusiastic...
If I am thinking about God, marshmallows, butterflies, sunshine and music maybe even a disney movie or two or some lyrics...it shall be posted!



I am rather excited about Italy on Friday. Lake Garda shall be beautiful.
Water parks, the house of Romeo and Juliet, a medieval banquet, theme parks, chilling by the pool side and more!



I hope there's lots of people out busking on the streets!

Anyway, I have nothing much to say just now but lots of thoughts to be thought I'm sure so I'll update this banger soon!

Mx